Not a good day in the long run

Today conversations were had, progress was made, clarity offered with a good back and forth.  Contact was made with the insurance company, up shot is the fee schedule is way too high even with the out of network benefits.  There was the start of building a budget and talking out my own fears to myself and setting up a safe, regulated space to write from on another platform.  All well and good but for one thing.  I lost right speech, right thought,  right action and it ate up the gains of the day and created the current frame of mind.  Mostly I think I am legitimately exhausted and that makes processing all the harder.  I just have t make it through the next  eight hours and I can sleep, the next ten days and I get a break.  At some point this will all pass, but for now it is important to keep the goal simple. Right mind, right speech, right action.