"I feel"...LINE!.."

 There is a quote I love.

“Face the facts. Then act on them. It’s the only mantra I know, the only doctrine I have to offer you, and it’s harder than you’d think, because I swear humans seem hardwired to do anything but. Face the facts. Don’t pray, don’t wish, don’t buy into centuries-old dogma and dead rhetoric. Don’t give in to your conditioning or your visions or your fucked-up sense of . . . whatever. Face the facts." Quellcrist Falconer.

I feel a profound disconnect from people to the point of thatI would call it flat line.  There is a person not close by who is interested in me, I thought I might be but I have gone flat.  dead flat with a smooth as glass finish on water.  Facing the fact I am not doing well, I am not engaging properly and I can't muster an emotion, aside from angry at roomies, to save my life.  I am in trouble and I can't seem to care.  

The housing situation too a bad turn, they want a credit score.  I have not had the time to look too hard.  Work needs some one ot come in on Sunday and help.  The over time I was going do isn't needed.  I wanton start a tai chi class,  but can't seem to get my Sunday functioning beyond one event.

Partners I have feel distant, home feels lost, the best part of my week was petting a dog.  I don't want to die, but I just don't want to live.  

In other news I have lost ten pounds, and meds are now a thing for h