Some times you put on the leather, wreck a convince store and have a good cry.

 I finished "Strangers in Paradise: the pocket edition vol II"  like a brick from orbit a complex poly relationship spanning the tragedy of decades. Written long before such things were accepted.  I see the lives of Francine, Katchoo and David spiraling together through good, bad and tragic.  I think of the lovers I have. The relationships that keep me going and I feel reminded of loss spent wasting time with people who I knew were bad for me. but gave a chance too.  I feel trapped in my career and determined to make thing better.  I am not going to yield. That would be intolerable.