Plans

[raev]

 I am hoping to leave NY and head home by Christmas break.  There are a few tings that have to be in place to have this happen.

 

1. Job Going to something rather than away from something.

2. A place to live.  A room rented in a house or a studio apartment.

3. A car.

 

I am in talks for number one, with an augmented plan for substitute teaching between freelance gigs.  Number two is not in play yet. Number three is in process and by process I mean waiting on availability in my meager price range.  Up shot is I hit my breaking point here I have no quality of life and things have to change and change soon.

 

To that end I am rewriting my resume, investigating costs, looking into networks and moving forward with the job search. I have markers I set for my self and that is that.   

 

Work does not know I have planned my exit and that I am on a time table.  I will not burn them, but I won't kill my self for them either.   I will have better intel over thanks giving break.  To say that I ma scared is an understatement leaving a solid gig for not so solid is frightening, But you know what is more frightening?  I got a good look at my co worker who is a pro through and through.  He looks like he is going to die.  Another co worker said to me "If you have an opportunity take it, look at X and I we are not going any where." These guys have been in the industry for 15 years at least. I want more than this non life.  I am not afraid to work hard or long hours, but I want there to be some sort of pay off for that level of commitment, a chance for a better life and the opportunity to expand.  I am not getting the where I am.  Better to be one of a few pushing hard than one of many pushing hard for nothing.

Comments

[littleweeds]

I love you. I can see that this job and living situation have become toxic.

[raev]

Love you too. It has become toxic and I need to follow through on leaving. I have kicked the idea that I failed since Ima not just leaving, but the clock has started. The Option at American High will take a good bit of time to figure out. In he mean time there is the SU job to apply for and plans to get the hell out of doge to build.